I don't know where I get it from...but I am feeling restless. Things have become too easy, too complacent, too commonplace and just too boring.
Too much of living life right now for me is on autopilot.
And I hate it.
We moved a bit as kids, I have no friends from childhood or high school. Only one person from college and we talk maybe once a year. I have only kept a job for more than 18 months once in my life (in the past 18 years).
I had so so luck at relationships, so that is at least good! I've had girlfriends and wives for at least a few years, though with some interruption.
I just have this gnawing inside, an aching need for something new and exciting.
Maybe it is my foot and being laid up and slowed down, but this feeling has been building for a while.
I know this is crazy, but hear me out. In just my wild frantic brainstorming I seem to have come up with
-Go back to Iraq, but for only 6 months
-Move to be closer to the kids
-Quit my job and work on my novel and website. But REALLY work at them.
-Convince D. to take me to a foreign country
-Go back to school to be a physicians assistant
I don't know..... Anyone who knows me, do you have any insight??
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PLEASE don't go back to Iraq. I'm surprised you're even thinking about it, considering what you went through there.
ReplyDeleteIf you want to seriously sit down and write a novel and you have the means to do so full-time (i.e. financial support), you should take a shot. School, travel, moving -- all those are options, too, but remember: No matter where you go, there you are.
i'm feeling caged and settled. it is killing me.
ReplyDeletenothing i think should suprise anyone. especially when it is doing something others won't do.
Ok, let me break it down for ya. No, on going back to Iraq. Yes, on moving closer to the kids (if Diane is down), and yes to writing a novel. Mom and I were just saying a couple days ago that you should do that. I'd read it, as long as it doesn't suck!
ReplyDeletei have a new action/adventure idea for one floating around in my head that is pretty good.
ReplyDeletei've just really learned my current job is a very bad fit for me in some ways. =(
Hey brother, this is what I have to say. You do more and have been more places than anyone I know. Your married to an awesome woman, and besides the sucky job, your life is much more exciting than you probably realize. Enjoy that! Start writing your novel on the side and then heck, go buy a new motorcycle! Love you, Molly
ReplyDeleteThe general concensus is that I should be writing. Despite my poor spelling, I must be able to somehow tell stories....
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