JCVD

My first wife had a thing for Van Damme and his movies. So we watched all of them that came out in our time together. We both got what we wanted out of them.

Now my 'cinema' viewing choices are a little more sophisticated and the only 'movie' I would think of watching is the documentary entitled JCVD. Or maybe the small role he has as a Venice Beach extra in the movie "Breakin'" where he is seen dancing on the boardwalk wearing a truly horrible 80's spandex outfit.

A common theme through almost all of his movies are he just gets beat down and beat down and beat down. Worse than Rocky. And just at the very end when you think he is going to be completely defeated, he rallies. Hooray, the hero overcomes and prevails.

In my movie the continual abscess and infection in my surgical wounds is the enemy and I'm the hero. The latest bout with this is a knock down blow I'm fearing. It is too easy to feel bleak and defeated currently. My hope has been betrayed too many times.

Taking liberty with one of my favorite movie's title mine would have be entitled "Dr. Strangelife or how I stopped smiling and learned to love the despair."