What's the difference between foolhardy and courageous?

I'm not sure I even have the chemical/neurological ability to differentiate between the two when I have to make decisions in certain parts of my life. Maybe there really is a "risk taker" gene or something analogous to it.

Now I know what you are asking, what did he do this time? Did he go skydiving again? Nope. Though I've thought about it. Did he get in the ocean and surf with his wounds still open? No, but I've been looking at a new surfboard and waiting till I can get in the water again. Did he ride his motorcycle too fast? YES. I went for a ride within the hour of getting my wound VAC taken off! No biggie.

Hmmm.... those are actually all pretty tame. Well in my mind they are. So what did I do? I registered for the Pan Jiu Jitsu Championship that is the last weekend of this month. Normally I would have been preparing for months for this competition. This time I have days. My coach, Andre Galvao, is not happy I am doing it either.

But there is something inside me. I really only lived for 3 things the past 7 months. Without any of them I would have given up hope. God, and my knowledge of him. My family, my love and relationships with all of them. And jiu jitsu, for everything it has given my mind and body.

I have an opportunity to compete again, quickly and on a large stage. Does anyone who really know me think I would pass that up??? Really.....???