1-i'm not happy about not being able to do jiu jitsu for 4 months now. everyone is getting better than me. i haven't even been able to do minimal exercise so it's not like i'm even fit and not rolling.

2-i've missed out and not gotten like 3 jobs in a row now.

3-middle of the night ostomy bag leaks and dealing with my prolapsed stoma are really starting to drag.

4-it seems like the women in my family have an issue with having brain tumors.

5-i've been having a hard time focusing on the positive things. it just seems like somethings are pointless. and that makes me want to give up.

BUT I AM NOT GOING TO