I need to do some real thinking, planning, praying and what not about life. I just feel like I don't have a "future" right now.

Mid-life crisis? I don't know.

Thinking in the traditional sense I guess I am talking about something "to do". Providing economically, using my education.

Working at the bike shop was fine and all, but it was frankly less than I'm capable of. And after my extended time off for my health issues they no longer had a position for me.

Simply I would like to work in Nuclear Medicine again but that is never going happen as long as I live in San Diego. Owning a home and Super D's job make relocation a tough thing to do, just for me. I find it hard to justify that kind of change.

Thus a need to plan. To figure something else out.

The life I lead is great and many people envy it. But it has no 'future'.

Am I being selfish? Am I whinning about nothing? Should I work harder on accepting things?

No matter what though I should make some sort of 5 year type plan for the future...