I feel like...

I feel like when I look at myself or others look at me the way you would fat Val Kilmer. You look at him and think to yourself, "man, you used to be awesome. what happened?"

I just feel weak, uninspired, tired, unattractive and that I've got nothing going on...

I know these feelings are temporary and possibly not justified, but I feel them none the less. Maybe when my house situation reaches some sort of equilibrium I'll feel better....

I'd like to train, to exercise, to recreate, to work, to load, to feel healthy and to finish packing.

I do not like...

... this house. All it does lately is frustrate me and cost money. Lots of money. I'll have spent over ten grand just to sell the house. And it's not like I'm walking away with enough equity to buy a house outright in AR. I'd be surprised if the check was greater than 10 grand to me when the moving truck pulls away from SD for a final goodbye.

Everything seems to be an issue and when exposed shows another one. Why not just tear the whole damn house down for goodness sake...

Go see the Macbeth movie. The film is fantastic in its visuals and also makes the dialogue accessible to most people as well.

I absolutely hate California and can not wait to leave this state. And the people who love it are probably just as happy I'm leaving. They can have it!

TV for me!!

Guess who is cast for season 4 of the competition shooting tv show "The Right Stuff"?

Just one guess......

Ok, so the move to Little Rock next year is a GO. Jobs are lined up, houses have been looked at, matches found, a church to attend, restaurants checked out and plans to learn about the new area's nature, culture and history have been made.

But that leaves one major and one minor thing left. San Diego. I gotta sell a house in San Diego as the major thing. And I'd really love to sell my vacant land in east county as the minor thing.

Jobs have been told a start date of June 1, 2016. Can I sell a house in 4 months?

Thankful

I'm thankful that I can just eat. As someone who has had over 12 surgeries on my intestines and lived off IV feeding only for 3 months and was told I'd be nutritional cripple... Well on a holiday for thanks and with a big food component I am happy to just be able to eat.