The day after...

Bleed more than normal out of my two holes last night. Slept very poorly. Still groggy from the anesthesia. Glad to be eating again. Still in kind of a somber mood.

What's on my mind now is that I bought a new bike for racing each week. But now I feel bad that I might have spent money on something that I can't use right away or as often as thought, especially if I have surgery sooner rather than later.

I also have a snowboarding vacation in Colorado the week after Thanksgiving planned and paid for. Thankfully nothing will happen so fast as to mess that up.

And a triathlon in Palm Springs December 3rd.

Conceivably I could have surgery again in December. I remember having one last December. Make it an anniversary? But then that leads to this.....

I have a wedding in January I HAVE to attend. I have a farewell possibly in January I HAVE to attend. I also have a planned vacation of a week in Israel in January.

Can I keep racing bikes? No, that will have to wait for a full recovery. I will just race when I can until surgery.

Can I go back to jiu jitsu? No, not until totally healed from next surgery. Andre Galvao called me today and we chatted about it. He was very positive. A good friend.

Can I go to a wedding? Yeah, I could 'gut it out' and be tough, I'm almost sure of it. It wouldn't be as awesome, but if they let me travel I could do it and just work through the pain.

Could I go to a farewell? Again, probably yes. Just not obviously be at 100% and would just fight through the weakness and pain.

Could I go to Israel for a week? No. Not a chance.

Will Valentines continue to be cursed for me? Possibly.

So it looks like I will get through November with no issues. Probably December as well just 'cause I doubt my HMO would have a surgery spot open that soon. But January could be a tough month for me, my loved ones and friends.