2011 Goals

So far this is what I have:

-Run a half marathon with/against my sisters. (gotta find a Saturday one later in the year)
-Run in the Warrior Dash. In costume. (registered already!) Should my costume be modern or ancient warrior??
-Run in the Camp Pendleton Mud Run with a corporate team. (registered already!)
-Compete in 4 jiu jitsu tournaments. One being the International Masters and Seniors in Rio, Brazil in July.
-Pray and read scripture everyday. 100%
-Take one photo a day of myself to make a gif of when I have the whole year's worth of self portraits.
-Do not get a major haircut all year.
-Recover from surgery.
-Get all the CEUs needed to keep my nuclear medicine license.

2010

Just a few things to remember from 2010 before jumping into a hopefully great 2011.


-running my first half marathon
-my dad surviving open heart surgery
-getting my purple belt
-having fun on my motorcycle
-going on vacation to europe
-getting the porsche
-learning not to quit, learning how much effort life can take

How odd........

How odd that I really really enjoy watching college football. It started as just appreciating the level of athleticism to play the game. But now I like actually read college football news like twice a week, I actively seek it out on tv. Six months ago I couldn't have told you even the name of a college football team. How odd.....

How odd that taking a shower and then walking upstairs has me almost shaking with fatigue. I'm the guy who earlier this year ran his first half marathon in right at 2 hours with ZERO training, just getting off the couch and going. Now I am completely deconditioned. I know it will only take 8 weeks of serious training to get it back, but I'm still effected now. But now just the simple acts of life make me tired. How odd.....

How odd that one of my goals for 2011 is going to be not getting a hair cut. I normally despise long hair. I also like the diy aspect of just buzzing my hair off every few weeks. I feel leaner and meaner with short hair. More rowdy. So I find myself wanting to grow it long just for the simple fact I feel it is an impossible task for me. Simple vanity and curiosity also wants to know what I would look like with longer hair. I already have a unique hair color naturally, what if people can actually see it? So I am not gonna cut it really for all of 2011. How odd.....

You know you have a good.......

First aid kit when you can take surgical staples out at home. On yourself!

NYE???

Ok help me out with my New Years Eve plans. Please.

Here are the requirements or issues

-I don't drink alcohol at all. I can be around it, but 5 hours in a bar just chillin' would be too much. So something where I can be non alcoholic and have options to drink.

-I want to be out of my house. So I'm not hosting anything.

-I need to be able to sit somewhere comfortable if I need to. And have ready access to someplace to go to the bathroom. This does not preclude doing something outside or natury.

-I can't tuck a shirt it really well right now, so dress code might be a consideration. I can go up or down. Give it a shot..

-It should be in Southern California hopefully.

There ya go. IS there any hope for me to have a NYE celebration this year??

He had a knife, I didn't.

So that means I was the one in the hospital for a week, with all the "fun" that entails.

Enough talk! Pictures. Some of them with 26 little metallic friends of mine who will be leaving tomorrow. I might save a few. Macabre?

How does a 1 3/8th inch hole turn into such a big scar?
NG tube, oxygen, PCA, SCD's to prevent DVT, foley catheter, PICC line, regular iv line and tons of meds, antibiotics, fluids and TPN. Last night I had dreams I could feel all of this stuff still, felt I was still in a hospital bed, still there. It was horrible.
My scar while lying down in the hospital.
I stared at this for 5 freaking days with them never changing it. No wonder I was going crazy!!
My scar standing up at 7pm on Sunday night.

sippy cup

I finally realized how to articulate what I am feeling currently, health wise.

I am an infant basically. I feel as if I am learning to walk again, I can barely make it up and down my stairs at home. My bowels are far from working normally and controlled. I am eating soft food. I can't sleep through the night at all. I need others to care for me.

Basically I am a baby. But I can talk.

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As an aside Super D and I were talking about my memory. Or lack there of. I am not Alzheimer-y but I really am unable to remember much at all of September and October. And my ability to remember something just told to me one to two hours later seems almost non existent.

Honestly, I think it is totally the "use it or loose it" effect. There is nothing I do during the day for the past couple years of my life that requires much of my brain power. I should take like a community college math class or something just to work the mind muscle. 'Cause I hate Sudoku and crosswords.

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Being sick and healing again has given me a new kind of "come to Jesus" moment. I think I will write most of that stuff in my physical pen and paper journal rather than here. But just know it is happening.

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I have 26 staples in two different incisions right now. They come out on Monday tentatively. My surgeon did follow my request to kind of clean up my stomach a bit. My belly button is back to center and not twisted now. Most of the old scarring was cleaned up and removed. Some odd pouching of fat was also corrected.

So I think I will be able to go shirtless again. Eventually. Right now I am pretty swollen and bruised up though. Not a pretty picture hahaha. So guess what? I'm gonna take one and put it up here! HA!

I try to think back to my recovery from other surgeries and I don't think I can make any comparisons. This time I had to deal with 3 of them in as many months, as old as I've ever been, complications and maybe a little weaker mentally. Right this very second I feel the best I have and I am super thankful for it!

I can see why my Dr wanted me to stay a day or so longer in the hospital. But I just could not have taken it. I did jokingly threaten them I would just leave and walk home, known as going "AMA" in the biz. I'd rather suffer at home, then get better at home to. No duh, but home is just always 1,000,000 times better than the hospital.

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I opened xmas presents early today. Hey, I deserved it. And I hope you have a great time as well too!
AMC gift cards (True Grit tomorrow!!)
Check for $
Amazon gift card
Arte Suave and 2010 Mundials dvds
two very attractive sweaters, argyle
a custom Shoyoroll gi that will be here in like 3 months