Worry

I wish I didn't worry so........ I have some things on my mind that I can't seem to shake off and let go of completely. First and foremost is getting the work done to tear down my private shooting range and get that land sold. I want that off my conscious sooo badly. All that property does now is cause me to feel anxious and worried. The exact opposite of its intended purpose. I am in the process of fixing all this, but I guess I won't feel really at peace about it until the range is completely torn down and the County no longer has an open case against me.

Secondly I think about the little things around the house I want fixed before selling it. Time and money and scheduling. Seems to be the core component to all of these things. Oh and maybe "ownership" as well. The shower and wall in the master bathroom need fixing and replacing of fixtures. The kitchen sink and fixtures need replacing. The AC unit outside needs looking at and disconnected from the PGE control program we're enrolled in. I'd like a security screen door for the front of the house. There is a soft spot on one of the balconies. The whole house needs pressure washed and cleaned.The passage door between the garage and the house needs a new lockset. And all the tore up screen doors from the cat need replacing. Man that seems like sooooo much.

Travel. Travel should be fun and magical, and it is, but you have to frontload a lot of the work. I've got Illinois already done, but still have to do Oklahoma, Spain, New Jersey and one other. And expedite my passport renewal as well.

Killer. Killer needs to get his final dental work done well. He needs to move to his new place and he needs to start college. I won't stop thinking about this until he gets the process going and successfully!

I guess this wouldn't be soo bad but for the facts that they all require 1. a metric tonne of cash to accomplish. 2. depending on someone else to actually perform the labor or actions. 3. will take months to accomplish.

Following my own dictum that "action is the best response to misfortune" only kind of works in this instance. These are really bad things that have happened to me so much as they are items that need attention or correction and if left alone will all have negative consequences. None of these things can be ignored. But let's work on them anyways!

Highest priority is getting the range done and sold. I'll sleep much better when this is done.
Next is getting my passport and travel arranged. Super D and I need to do this together soon. And budget for it.
Third should be prioritizing the house upgrades and then figuring who should do each section. I have a list, it's just picking times and people I guess to accomplish them and do it around possibly selling the house.
Fourth will be dealing with K. This one should require the least outside assistance and is also the simplest in my opinion.

Not sure if I feel better now that I've gotten this all out there, but I did. Next few steps are on me!