Unfinished Business

Been seeing pictures online lately of people I used to train jiu jitsu with who are now black belts. I bowed out when I was a purple belt. I'm pretty sure I had the physical and mental skills where I could have made it by this time as well. I for sure would have been a brown belt with a couple stripes.

The community college I take classes at is across the park from where I used to race bmx. If there were more than 4 riders I never made the main off of winning a heat race. I only ever made the main off of low turn out. Either in cruiser or regular. I never raced bmx as a kid so racing against 10 year old experts was pretty humbling. And in retrospect irritating.

I still only have a BS degree. Multiple years of trying to get into PA school never worked. Never started a different masters program. I don't really use the degree I have. I'm not complaining but most everyone I am friends with have advanced degrees so there is a tinge of inadequacy. Each year it is a struggle to renew my nuclear medicine license. My EMT cert lapsed long ago.

Languages. Yep, I'm doing good in Spanish and learning more than I ever have but my language history is littered with stops and starts. I got straight C grades through two and one half years of high school French. I did one semester of high school Spanish. Later I dropped out of a community college conversational Spanish class when I lived in Yuma. I tried taking Russian twice and dropped out within two weeks of a privately run course and a college one. Hebrew. Arabic. Both the same. Spanish is the only one to have taken root. And while I have plans to attend a semester in Spain I might have to ditch that for possible work development.

I'm not complaining at all. Just been reminded lately of things I didn't really see all the way out to a possible end. I'm not even sure if these things even warrant more attention or effort from me, but they did pop up in my mind the past month.