Focus

I can't focus on the things I should right now. I'm stuck thinking about dumb things or things lower down on my priority list. But yet that's where my focus is.

Thinking about how hot I am and the drought in California.
Thinking about travel.
Thinking about a spot on the deck with water damage. Or by the shower. Or a torn screen. Or the shutters need painting.
Thinking about cracks in the stucco.
Thinking about how I did soo poorly at the end of the season.
Thinking about the three gun issues that are keeping them from being 100% right now for competition.
Thinking about how far I feel I am behind everyone else in Arabic class.
Thinking about how to work more hours and make more money.
Thinking about how unorganized parts of the house are, the pantry, the spare bedroom, the garage, the sideboard, the bookcases.

It's like a million mosquitos are around me. They may not have bit me but their prescense is enough to drive me crazy.

Instead of thinking I should be DOING. But I'm not......

Change the oil in my motorcycle.
Spend more time grinding out the memorization for Arabic class.
Do more dry fire training.
Spend the money to get stuff around the house fixed.
Actually do the cleaning and organizing but with help.

What am I doing?? Well I bought the stuff to fix my pistols. I bought the stuff to change my oil. The house stuff I should jsut let go of for a while. Spring? I'm waiting on a new gun to arrive that will be the main model all next year, so want to train when it arrives. Arabic is going to take real work, learning two languages at once requires more attention that I'd realized.

If this was swimming I think the lifeguard would be looking at me with a wary eye and clutching his float right now.