Melodramatic, so take it with a grain of salt.

There are times when I on the couch for hours, sore all over, sensitive to light, with a low grade fever and battling the infection I got in the hospital and I think to myself,

"is this what it feels like to die?"

You think about people who had some sort of bacterial infection just 50 years ago and they totally died from it. Like the old Oregon Trail game, you get dysentery and then die. And I've had amoebic dysentery that I caught in Iraq, so I know!

While I know I am not dieing, I am just so tired of feeling run down and fighting my health. It's hard to be happy about 'just being alive', when you can't live how you would like. I can't even shower normally!!

My doctor gave me Prozac and I took it for 2 days before I threw the pills away. Now I have 14 days of my fourth antibiotic in as many weeks to try and cure this rarer infection I have. Are they trying to create some new super resistant strain of Enterobactor in me???

Freak!