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Listening to the guy who's been the national champ for what I do more times in the past ten years than anyone else his day is:

Get up 6am and then-

Work out for an hour.

Load ammo for an hour.

Dry fire for an hour.

Shoot live fire for two hours.

Do this every day of the week. 7am till noon devoted 100% to advancing his shooting. To beat him I have to at least equal this. And not for a month, but for years. Years.

Daunting.

And if you haven't seen me shoot in a while, this is what it looks like:

Delete

I've deleted the Facebook, Messenger, Kik and Instagram apps from my phone. I've deleted my Athlete FB page, my personal FB page and just stopped using the others as I can't access them from my phone, they'll die of neglect.

Social media was taking more from my life than it was giving. I already have enough drains on me in the real world to add others that didn't provide enough value.

I still text, I still email, I will still write here, I'll still play word games on my phone. Other than that, forget it.

Used to...

I have quite a few "used to do's" in my life now. I've made the choice to really focus on competitive shooting but some other stuff has just naturally fallen by the way side. I feel this acutely when I look at pictures from around college until now.

I used to do quite often, enjoyed and was reasonably proficient at:
-rock climbing (have enough stuff to still boulder)
-mountain biking (still have an xc bike)
-trail running (still got shoes)
-world traveling (still have a valid passport)
-jiu jitsu (which I tried to go back to but didn't really feel the spark strong enough to overcome a 1 hour drive each way)
-learning another language language (haven't done a thing with this since my semester in Spain over a year ago)

I'm just not sure I'm balanced enough to pursue multiple activities at a time. Or I'm kinda tired of doing most of these things alone. I like shooting, I like practice, I like traveling to matches but I miss some two wheeled adventures, I miss being outside in a different way, I miss being outside of the US.

Yes, it was my choice to move to rural Arkansas and this effects all of my goals and such in life. I accept that. What's hard to accept is that it's really on me, my desire. I have time, I just need more "want".......

I don't think children ever really know or understand their parents.

Talking on the phone to customer service will be looked on in the future as one of the low points in our age. The way we look back on cities that had open sewers.

Sound of Silence

I know I'm getting down to writing about twice a month and normally some sort of vague, cryptic response to something I read elsewhere. But I am gone for the next 9 days for filming of the TV show I'm going to be on.

So no texts, no FB, no email, no IG, no nothing electronic at all. Get back at ya the 15th!