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Sitting in the movies last week and the exit door pops open a crack. I'm instantly nervous and hyper aware. A majority of movie theater shooting the person came in through the exit.

As I'm scanning and prepping and cursing the fact I don't have my AR ccw yet I decide to act.

I get up, approach the door obliquely, I do a quick peek, I open the door hard and fast ready to pounce. No one is there, no equipment was staged. So I close the door hard and listen for a few seconds, look over at the other door. Nothing.

As I sit down a few people clap and one woman says thank you.

I wish more people would pay attention to their surroundings and then act on what needs to be acted upon. Have courage! Overcome your fears.

btw I was nervous and the fight or flight deal was surely kicking in. But if it was the 1/1,000,000 chance it was going to be an active shooter I didn't want to be sitting there!

Happiness

Now this ranks pretty high up on the things that make my smiley and happy list.

Happiness

Now this ranks pretty high up on the things that make my smiley and happy list.

Not Sorry

I am not going to apologize ever again for:

-having free time to practice greater than most
-having some of my match fees paid for, including travel, food and lodging
-having an athlete fb page
-practicing while most people are at their 9-5 job
-doing more live fire than dry fire
-promoting myself all over
-being on a shooting reality tv show

Life's not fair, the end.

The struggle

I'm having a real struggle not developing a strong dislike towards most of the people I'm competing against in shooting. It's like it is easier for me to be motivated when I'm angry and dislike people.

The nice side of doesn't think this is right and fights against it. So I feel unbalanced in my emotions and motivations right now.

Both Feet

Yep, developing plantar fasciitis in both feet.

My favorite 4ths

#1. Any Fourth spent in Klamath Falls where I got be off work,watch a parade, be with extended family, swim in Granny's pool, eat food off the grill, shoot guns, shoot off my own fireworks and see fireworks. Thankfully I've had more than one very such day with all of those, either visiting as a child or later living there as an adult. Can't be topped!

#2. Landing in San Diego on the 4th of July, 2007 after my time in Iraq. Can you imagine, your first day back home after being in a war in a foreign country is the 4th of July? That was special.

#3. Spending the Fourth in a different country, Spain. Seeing K in his all red, white and blue mish mash of Apollo Creed and Uncle Sam. Eating hamburgers at the Hard Rock Cafe. Swimming in the pool. But mostly just having this reflective, internal, peaceful day of realizing the benefits of our independence.

#4. The future ones I might yet spend with kids, family and friends.