FYI

Super glue does not work for dental repair. You can't super glue a chipped tooth back together.

The nightmares have returned. The one that has me awake and typing about it occured barely after having slept for only a hour. And one that in the nightmare had me the most fearful I've been in a long time. I felt so powerless it was like I was possesed or something. Scary.

I remember wanting to scream for help and having my mouth move but nothing come out. I remember wanting to get out of bed and run but feeling as if I was paralyzed, or physically restrained in some way.
I remember hearing a voice in my head telling me no one would help me, no one can hear me, there is nothing I can do. It told me I could never get away and that it was going to get me.
I remember right before waking up yelling and hyperventilating the image that filled my minds eye was just the nose of an animal panting heavily.

Now I feel awake, but drained. Hardly rested but afraid to go back to sleep. I'm starting to hate the night again. My nightmares are returning.....

Thoughts this morning.

From a Brazilian catadore "99 is not 100." One person, one thing, one action, one idea apart from the group can make a difference.

There is right, there is wrong and there is a difference between things, people, places. 99 is not 100.

Completion. Effort. Did you give truly your all? 99 is not 100.

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From a fellow produce clerk back in the day, "Pigs get fat, hogs get slaughtered." Greed, avarice, uncontrolled lust all lead to the slaughter. Of your life, your morals, your dreams.

Dreams, goals, hopes, aspirations, drive, assertiveness, honest and hard work all lead you to a proper, good success. The fat of the land.

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If you wish to give me a present for my birthday I ask instead that you do this, donate to the Crohns and Colitis Foundation of America. More especially donate here if you want: Help me here!

This was my view at 6am. My first jiu jitsu instructor, Fabio Santos, used to say, "A champion doesn't get up in the morning and brush his teeth, he gets up and runs." And while this seems like an odd saying, I got the jist of it. In my case I didn't run, but did 40 minutes of circuit training.

the Byronic man

For the Angel of Death spread his wings on the blast,
And breathed in the face of the foe as he passed;
And the eyes of the sleepers waxed deadly and chill,
And their hearts but once heaved, and for ever grew still!

Happy Mother's Day

Today was great but......

Today was great. An epic mountain bike ride, huge In-n-Out lunch and 3 hour nap. Oh, and quite possibly the biggest mnt bike crash of my life that didn't result in a broken bone. And now the Supercross finale is on and I have yet to pick where I am gonna take myself out to dinner. I want BBQ but that is gonna be an impossibly long wait on a Saturday night.


But as great as today was next few Saturday's are gonna be at least as awesome if not more so!!

Check the schedule and check your boredom at the door!

14- 9am group sport bike ride.
1pm Spring Fest for Allied Gardens neighborhood. Sweet food, music and such.
4pm D and C's house warming party!

21- My Birthday!! Gonna go to Universal Studios and so all the stuff there for the day.

28- Going to visit family in Utah. Rock climbing and possibly the World Superbike Race as well. Family, food and fun for sure.

June 4- Competing in the World freaking Championships of Brazilian Jiu Jitus!!! up at the Pyramid in Long Beach.

11- Celebrating my friend's PHD!! Killer's graduation weekend as well!

So yeah, as great as today was the next handful of Saturdays are gonna be great too!!