Used to...

I have quite a few "used to do's" in my life now. I've made the choice to really focus on competitive shooting but some other stuff has just naturally fallen by the way side. I feel this acutely when I look at pictures from around college until now.

I used to do quite often, enjoyed and was reasonably proficient at:
-rock climbing (have enough stuff to still boulder)
-mountain biking (still have an xc bike)
-trail running (still got shoes)
-world traveling (still have a valid passport)
-jiu jitsu (which I tried to go back to but didn't really feel the spark strong enough to overcome a 1 hour drive each way)
-learning another language language (haven't done a thing with this since my semester in Spain over a year ago)

I'm just not sure I'm balanced enough to pursue multiple activities at a time. Or I'm kinda tired of doing most of these things alone. I like shooting, I like practice, I like traveling to matches but I miss some two wheeled adventures, I miss being outside in a different way, I miss being outside of the US.

Yes, it was my choice to move to rural Arkansas and this effects all of my goals and such in life. I accept that. What's hard to accept is that it's really on me, my desire. I have time, I just need more "want".......

I don't think children ever really know or understand their parents.